Better Than Ours

FINALLY, I'm back to writing and to show you guys whats on my heart!

So this year has been full of so many things happening to me from anything bad to anything great. The first 5 months or so, I felt like I went to hell and back then things began to slowly fall back into place just like I wanted them. For the last 2 months I've been back at New City Church and been faithful to it unlike the first half of this year where I was not faithful to the church at all. As I returned back to NCC, God has been revealing Himself more and more to me and His faithfulness never ceases to amaze me. He has really been getting me to really search my heart and to see what all He has for me now and for whats to come. It's incredible how much He can reveal to you with all the things you come across in your life and in my life, its quite a lot.

In the last month God has has put a few words on my heart
1. Patience
2. Timing
3. Faithful

We all want things and most of the time we want that exact thing instantly. Whether if its money, a job, a boyfriend/girlfriend, or whatever it may be...we all want something. But when it comes to personal things like I listed its something we need to always put into Gods hands. I'm gonna be completely honest with this blog. In December 2010 I started dating a guy and I totally convinced myself that he was "the one". Every girl dreams of finding that guy that she will marry and she will know that he'll love her and be there forever with her. I was always asked "Did you pray about this relationship?" and of course I was like yeah I did! I got to a point where I kept telling myself that everything was perfect and convincing myself I was happy, that it ended up crumbling and the relationship ended in May of 2011. Why did this happen? I never, not even once, put God first. I never prayed about the relationship and anything else that went with the relationship. So when you have something that God isn't for, it is for sure not meant to be. During that 5 months I didn't want to go to NCC anymore, I lost all my friends, my relationship with God was going down the drain, and I was never around my family anymore. God has revealed to me in the last couple of weeks if you want something that is as important as having "the one", you must pray and wait. I am THE most impatient person in the world but after the experience I went through, God has me patiently waiting and I couldn't be any happier! God's timing is so beyond perfect and ours is not. Straight up. If you get yourself into something that wasn't Gods timing and you know that for a fact, first of all its not worth your time and secondly not the right time for that situation. Who am I to know when something is right without Gods approval? EVERYTHING is perfect in Gods time!!!! If the desire of your heart is to have that significant other, pray and seek the Lord! Will he bring that person to you tomorrow? Next week? Next year? Heck, maybe 10 years if that's what God wants. The waiting sucks horribly, but if you know Gods love that He has for you and His faithfulness in your life...you will wait every day patiently and be optimistic. I'm tired of going through heart break after heart break so now its time God takes the lead of my heart. His faithfulness will blow your mind when He finally brings that person to you. God will lead you to that person. To all you ladies out there, that man God is going to bring you is going to be a completely Holy man of God that is going to be everything God wants for you and more, for real! That's why I'm done with searching on my own for that one guy. It's a huge waste of my time. Let the Lord lead your heart, His love and faithfulness never fails :)

I'm gonna finish this off with these lyrics:
"When I can't feel you, I have learned to reach out just the same, When I can't hear you, I know you still hear every word I pray, And i want you more than i want to live another day, And as I wait for you maybe I'm made more faithful" - Brooke Fraser


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